What SHould I do??

Hiaz.. My Muest Still get band 2...
so how... What I'm going to do??
I waited and waited (yesterday) midnight... I'm so nervous that moment..
I thought that I won't get band 2 again... At the end I still get band 2.. One of my group get band 3...
Another one get band 1.. (drop)
Now I'm going to send message to others.. see whether what they get...
When my mom asked me about the result..
I just say " I got band 2 "
Then what she say is.. that why , didn't read english paper or do english lesson..
Then she say that need to send me to British Council.. Not other ...
I feel so bad when I knew my result.. Very sad..
I cannot take it anymore...
I just want to XXX
I cannot take it anymore..
Someone pls help me..
I don't know which path I want to go... And I got the feeling that  my result for STPM is NOT good as well..
I think no more that 1 pointer.. I just got the feeling...
I really need someone to brainwash my brain and forget all the things that I've done...
Is already 10.13am.. And I don't have the mood... I will smile at people but in my heart.. just emo...
Why should I compare to other people..
For example.. Sister and Brother?? My parents like to compare with it
Since I;m not good in study why should I enter form 6?
Why should I take STPM? Why should I....
I really regret enret form 6.. If I didn't enter form 6.. What should I do?
So many question I need to ask myself.. But I still can get any answer of it..
Parents will say.. Just ask yourself, what you want to do or what you want to be? or what cousre you want to take?
If my pointer less than 1, what should I do?
Everyday I ask myself, but I still can't see the path...
Some of them just tell me to do graphic design...
Really don't have the move to go on...
Now I just want to stay inside the room and do nothing...
Can I do that?
Of course cannot...
Cause I'm sleeping with my sis..
iIs already 10.24am.. Ijust continue type this blog..
I just want to "ice-cream"... anywhere also can... But I still cannot cry.. singer tears drop also don't have..
I just want to keep quiet and do nothing.. as a "no use people "
Everyone have their own path.. but for me.. NONE..
I really wish my STPM don't look so awful....
When the result come out.. I need to know which part I want to go...
That all~



~JANE~
~ARASHI SAIKOU!~