Hiaz what a day~~

i really
don't know what to say...
my feeling about myself...
although my mum ask me about the school...
i just say ok only.
tonight i will tell my true feeling about myself
But feel so down this day...
i don't even know if i tell the true feeling...
i always think which one is my true feeling..
i keep wonder...
now my essay english haven done and tomorrow need to pass up...
now i really stress up~~ >> i don't think so~~ T_T
after when i get me spm result i wanted to go college..
but when i surf the internet the government gave me ~~~
then on that time i think about the fee, the sub that i want to study~~
NONE~~ if i say i want go college and study~~ hiaz.. need to think about the fees~~
just bought a car..
hiaz.. really want to cry now T_T